'I want to do' versus what 'I should do' versus what 'I'm currently doing'

I know I have a tendency to blather on about what 'I want to do' versus what 'I should do' versus what 'I'm currently doing'.

I 'SHOULD' be going to college and making something of myself. I know that having children is an awesome experience. But for someone personally....there's got to be something more out there. Something more than cleaning and doing laundry......I also feel like I 'SHOULD' be working.....

I am 'CURRENTLY' a stay at home mom and housewife. With no education that's worth anything and next to nothing work experience. Who is a chronic daydreamer that wants to travel, go to parties, and gain a vast understanding of the world around me. Of course I can still possibly do those things. The problem is I probably won't do them while I'm young. That's what bugs me. That's what eats at me. I also bitch about not attending college, when it's no one's fault, but my own. It can't be helped though in a way since Boo isn't in school quite yet.

What I am yearning 'TO DO'? I want to write, but ever since Candace ditched me. I have kind of lost the interest......I can't quite focus. When I do manage to get something out I work on it so much, I get burnt out, and don't want to touch it. I want to own a business, but I am math illiterate. I wouldn't mind being a paranormal investigator, but without a televised network. You're really nothing except a starving artist with fancy utensils.

My God......I have become cliched and typical. If I was wearing a knitted hat and sitting in a coffee shop. I would be a like every other yuppy hipster clicking and clacking away on a blog. Being obsessive and incessant about their life or lack thereof. Now I feel totally disgusted about myself.......