LADY GAGA:SOMEBODY I HATE TO LOVE

It is an unavoidable fact. Lady Gaga will go down in Pop Culture history as one of the most contoversial stars of our time.

From her crazy hairdos&don'ts. To her outrageous outfits&nofits. To what comes out of her mouth&what doesn't. Things she would rather you watch a music video to understand. Than verbally express it.
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All in all. When I watch, read, or hear something about her. It either makes me do 1 of 2 things. Applaud or cringe.

Things I applaud:

Trying to teach acceptance&tolerance of the LGBT community.

Speaking out against domestic abuse, child and spousal.

Becoming an advocate for anti-bullying.

Things that make me cringe:

Her support of Obama

Her hints at The Occult and Illuminati

Some of her fashion choices

And the latest, Gaga being completely vague about whether having an abortion or not. In every interview about her new vid 'Marry the Night'. She seems HIGHLY uncomfortable when the questions become personal. And politely asks for them to watch the video and come to their own decision.

I've seen clips of 'Marry the Night' and it looks like she's telling the story of getting an abortion. A regrettable one at that.

Rumors are she lost her virginity to rape that resulted in a pregnancy. And was cause. Although not just cause in obtaining an abortion. Though now in interviews centered around it. She seems numb, detached, and withdrawn. Some could say all those emotions are due to the rape. (If it happened. Remember we are dealing with rumors.) But I believe differently. I think her pain is half and half. I believe she may have chosen differently. Knowing what she knows now. From the looks of it. She's distraught over terminating her child.

Why I think this is because what the doctor tells her in the video, "I remember when I delivered you." That struck a chord with me. Out of all the things that were said to her during that ordeal. She choose to put THOSE words in the music video. Why those? If she doesn't regret it? Why mentally shut herself down during questions and quietly asking for you to watch for yourself.

Of all the things I could socially hate her for. This is is not one of them. Everytime I see her in such a discussion. I just want to hug her and hold her. Let her know she is forgiven.

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Comments from my Facebook Blog:

Abby Seal Stephanie (AKA- Lady Gaga) Is much more intelligent then most people will give her credit for. I respect her because she actually expresses herself through her music. It always has a deeper meaning. As for the music and video thing, The meaning is there in the music, it's just that the video goes with it. She uses both mediums to properly get her point across. We may never know if she got an abortion and/or how she feels about it. She is a controversial figure who is outspoken about many of her beliefs. It should be taken as strange that this is one subject she wishes to remain silent about for the time being.

As for supporting Obama and her fashion choices- Hey, nobody's perfect. And anyway she had admitted in many of her songs to being a willing slave of the music industry. She'll do whatever they tell her to and if it's get behind Obama... Then hell... Why the eff not, right? The girl knows how to write music. I'm happy as long as she doesn't do what 30 seconds to mars did and turn Obama's inaugural speech into a song. =_= one that was really freaking popular I might add.

In the music industry today a few facts are prevalent among many artists today
1) They don't write their own music

2)They are stupid idiots that do whatever they can for money

3)They can't carry a tune with out help from Auto-Tune

Lady Gaga on the other hand goes against many of those things except the money thing and she admitted that yes- she's a sell out and she wants it to be that way.

I have respect for her even if I don't like her music sometimes.

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Destiny Gonzalez I respect her. But you don't have to like someone to respect them. Just like you don't have to respect someone to like them.

As for selling out. Power to her! In all honesty. If and when I become a published writer. I am completely content with being a sell out. Either I can put up a struggle just to resign and give in anyway. Or I can just hand myself over and reap more benefits.

My two favorite quotes that would undoubtedly apply to me in this situation. :

From SLC Punk, "I didn't sell out. I bought in."

And,

Cobra Starship 'Prostitution is the world's oldest profession'- "Go on believe if it turns you on. Take what you need til your body's numb. Prostitution is revolution. You can hate me. After you pay me. Me submission is your addiction. So just get out while you can."

I want a shirt that says, "You can hate me. After you pay me."
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Abby Seal LOL I'll make one for you
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Destiny Gonzalez I'll proudly wear it too.

ON GOING TO COLLEGE

My heart is filled with anxiety and fear about the future. My future. That I can possibly make something more of myself. Add to something that is already there.

I also have a strong hope and urge. That I can do this. That I can use it to pull me through.

I am reallyon the edge for this college thing. I know if I can accepted. That I won't back down.

HOPING FOR A LASTING EFFECT

Andrew messaged me today. Saying that he has quit drinking as of Sunday. Mainly because of me. I really don't care what his reasoning was in stopping. I'm just glad that it happened.

I'm really hoping. That he's telling me the truth. That he's not lying to me. Trying to get me off his case. Or that he falls off the wagon. He said that I scared him straight. With the things I told him.

I just want him to do well. I just the best for him. I know that he's hurting over Candace. But there's more to life than pain.